I read your story online and immediately understood your decision. As a mother... If you are on Facebook - this is a site I've been following. https://www.facebook.com/MollyBearsOrg?fref=ts If not, their actual website is http://www.MollyBears.com/. I believe what they produce for grieving parents is a wonderful way to honor a child that is lost too soon. May you continue to have sweet memories of Lucian. Peace to you and your family. Heather L.